The last few weeks I have not been able to find the energy to take out my camera and go shoot. Not that I have been lacking inspiration, I don’t think I’ve ever written down and sketched as many ideas of images that I want to make. For the last couple of years I have had my notebook with me everywhere, and I make sure to sketch my ideas as soon as possible after they have popped up in my head. Some ideas I get to realise, some ideas are still just an idea.
So after Christmas it has been kind of crazy at work, and I have forgotten to do a lot of the things I need to do to stay on top of my limitations. And it has worked out ok. I have been able to shoot some images that I have been quite satisfied with, I have been spending a lot of time with my son and I have been taking my share of the household chores. But I have been neglecting the time to meditate, to rest with quality and intention, to do my exercises with quality and intention, and to listen to my body. And so I’ve had more pains and dizziness leading to me finding myself half asleep in front of the computer working this morning. My body is shutting down because I have forgotten to boost it. And I probably have forgotten because I have gotten to a point where things work even with my limitations. I just pushed it a bit to far again.
This time I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I know what I have to do, and I’m going to do just that. I have decided that I want to feel that I’m leading a good life every single day, and I know that I’m the only one with the power to make sure that is a reality. So, energy, I’m coming for you! And when the energy is back, I’m looking forward to making some great images out of all the ideas I’ve sketched.